painting and the 9-5 work lifestyle
My most recent start has sat on the easel for quite some time now. I experience artistic highs and lows. Or so I think. Maybe the real reason is that I have to work a 9-5 job to pay the bills and purchase more art supplies. As I peruse through the web, I stumble across artists whose work is oozing out of my keyboard keys. Automatic envy. Then self-doubt. What is wrong with me that I don't have hundreds of canvases stretched and covered in oils? Could it be that I work full time? What a novel idea. But one I have not thought much about. I wake up at 8. At work at 8.30. On a good day I leave work at 5. Most days are more like 5.30. The commute home is never simple. Traffic cops aid in congesting the rush hour streets. Home at 6. What to eat? Clean socks for tomorrow? The cat pan needs to be changed. A few hours later, I am exhausted anxiously awaiting my pillow and soft comforter. To bed I go. Then it is another day.
Maybe it isn't lack of motivation, inspiration, even natural light. Maybe I am just busy.